God's Faithfullness
These last 2 months for me have been quite smooth considering the type of change I have been going through. A new city, a new life, a new home, a new job, new friends, and a new church. I have never really been through anything quite like it before. I went away to San Diego for a year, but I atleast had my brother and his family, so that was good. Obviously out here, I have Torrey, but everything out here is SO new and Different. It's been a challenge, but its been nice, it's like a fresh new begining, where I have to rely on God and God only. Torrey has been such an incredible support system. I don't miss where I came from. That may sound bad, but I think I was there so long, that it was time for a change. Some may agree and some may disagree, but it is something in my heart that I just knew I had to do. God is teaching me so much right now. I am learning so much about myself. Self esteem is stronger than is has been in a long time. Confidence in myself and who God has created to me is stronger too. I am learning that I don't have to question who I am. Although, it's still a very hard thing for me to do, b/c I have learned to always question myself, in my decisions, in who I am as a person. This book "Boundaries" that one of my pastors out here recommended for me to read is hitting home big time and I'm only 32 pages into it. I am blessed and greatful to have grown up and been around the peope I did, it was just time to move on. A time in my life where I am supposed to be excited about what is happening, is getting clouded, but I am having to remember that God never gives us more than we can handle. That in the end of these hard times, I am determined to come out w/ a testimony on how I handled it God's way, and not the "fleshly" way so to speak. That's all I have for now.. I'll write more later.... peace out and God bless.
